Plunder for gain

I was engulfed as the sky book page opened; swift march packaged
To break off silence, omnibus stir, I say a prayer; my wont - caged?
Eyes snap open; covered in a cold sweat, heart pounding, irrational fear
To my left; everyone was tied in the den of mongers - not anymore fare?
Properties went in, ransom came; stell back in rugged stead, raggedy.

Hawking on the highway, a desire helper came as love, there looms tragedy:
Found in citadel of learning with another lovebird, I beweild both sides for gain
My family is happy once more, with no question for the source, it was plain
In this moment, I am euphoric...I received the letter after some weeks
Of what I thought stress caused; "it is positive", a new sinister wicks.

Let me bury shame, see as the blood flows in pain; I buried glory,
I buried trust; exposed to both sides...no one left except this black lorry
Then, I recalled a woman dressed with the sun in my dream saying;
"Do not harm this child", but what of the teasing?
I cannot stay drowning in this pain, especially knowing it's me to blame.

Do not cry when I'm gone, I'm not a person you will ever need - flame
Tell my mom "I'm sorry", tell my dad "I'm gone", tell friends "I could not make it"
Tell future "I failed halfway", I failed as a daughter, as a wife, as a mom -void it
I touched the blood once more as I close unfulfilled life page
Do not be like me that bring forth no vision, rot in life cage

Since this happened; dying in a cozy ride of fear, I become fearless
If I die in ways I fear, bury me regardless.