diary entry 56

DIARY ENTRY 56
By darcy prince
I walked off the cafe job at Dee Why. It’s not because i hated it, it’s not because i thought i was better than it, i really don’t know, well i do. I was getting paid in cash, everyone wanted an easy job, they had easy access to actually running a decent cafe but chose the fast food route. I didn’t think twice, someone wanted me to work harder than what i was getting paid for, implied i should keep them happy, the shift ended two or three minutes later, i never looked back. The place at neutral bay wasn’t similar. But the neutral bay place, i was underqualified for it. Strangely enough, at the same time, I was weirdly physically tired, so I forlorn all morning rituals, gave myself permission to sleep in a little. That working week at dee why, i worked two shifts. I don’t expect to get paid for it. But I began applying for work, not often during these times, i instantly got a response. My personal history tells me that I go through weeks before I land a new job, telling myself the same story that I should really get my act together. But within two or three days, I got responses, interviews & trials. I don’t know why, but i told myself to back Dee Why, to hand out my resume, so i did. I handed them around. Three Beans, the Dee Why location. They had a help wanted sign. I went in, I got the job. Telling myself, take it, if i don’t like it, then look for other work. I don’t know what to make out of the Three Beans location. I’ve only done two shifts, thus far. And yes, it seems I can't get ahead. The dee why place i just quit, i could of kept up a better attitude, i think the fact i wasn’t get paid proper, i made use of it, to keep it easy for myself, i just couldn’t bring myself to conduct in a way to please others to keep it. Other than that, I have been diving into the comfort of being alone. I hope this constant of being a loner stays.