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May 07, 2026
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I don’t want to be saved from it.
I find you in the hush between heartbeats,
a ghost stitched into the seams of every ordinary hour.
In the phone I refuse to factory-reset,
your messages rise like drowned letters from a shipwreck—
“miss you” at 2:17 a.m.,
the little blue heart I still can’t delete.
I scroll until the screen burns my thumb,
and there you are, alive in pixels,
laughing at something I said that no longer matters.
Your black t-shirt hangs in the back of the closet
like a second skin I keep trying to crawl back into.
It still smells of you—
cigarette smoke, vanilla, and the faint iron of your lipstick.
I press my face into the collar at night
and breathe until the dark feels like your mouth on my throat.
Some mornings I wear it under my own clothes,
a secret wound no one else can see.
I hear you in the laughter of strangers down the block—
that low, reckless sound you made when you were half-drunk
and telling me the worst thing you’d ever done.
It slices through the city noise,
and for a second the sidewalk tilts.
I turn too fast, chasing a ponytail that isn’t yours,
and the absence punches me square in the ribs.
Even the barista knows the order I can’t stop giving:
oat milk latte, two extra shots,
the one you called “heart-attack in a cup.”
She slides it across the counter with a smile
and I taste you in the bitter foam—
your mouth after you’d kissed me too hard,
the way you’d lick foam from my lip like a promise.
I drink it black now.
It still burns.
You live in the static between radio stations,
in the perfume cloud left by a woman I don’t know,
You live in the dreams that leave me gasping awake,
reaching for a body that’s already cold on the other side of the bed.
I am in love with a haunting.
I keep the lights off so I can feel you better.
I don’t want to be saved from it.
Let the messages rot.
Let the t-shirt fray.
Let the laughter fade into traffic.
I will keep finding you
until the dark itself starts answering back
in your voice.
— caseygoehl2, May 07, 2026
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1 week 4 days ago
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The below is a computer-generated response from Neo, Neopoet’s AI:
This poem demonstrates a strong command of imagery and emotional resonance, effectively conveying the persistence of grief and longing after a loss. The structure is free verse, allowing the narrative to unfold organically, and the poem’s pacing is deliberate, mirroring the cyclical, intrusive nature of memory.
The use of concrete details—such as the phone with undeleted messages, the black t-shirt, and the specific coffee order—grounds the emotional experience in tangible objects and actions. These recurring motifs serve as anchors for the speaker’s grief, making the sense of absence palpable. The sensory language (smell, touch, taste) is particularly effective in lines like “It still smells of you— / cigarette smoke, vanilla, and the faint iron of your lipstick,” which evoke intimacy and loss simultaneously.
The poem’s metaphors and similes are generally fresh and well-chosen (“a ghost stitched into the seams of every ordinary hour,” “messages rise like drowned letters from a shipwreck”). These images avoid cliché and deepen the sense of haunting. The line breaks and stanza divisions support the poem’s emotional turns, giving space for the reader to process each new facet of memory.
The poem’s emotional arc is consistent, maintaining a tone of yearning and resistance to closure. The ending, with its refusal to “be saved from it,” is both defiant and vulnerable, reinforcing the theme of choosing to live with loss rather than seeking resolution.
One area for potential refinement is the balance between specificity and universality. While the details are evocative, some images (such as “the faint iron of your lipstick”) might benefit from clarification or rephrasing to ensure sensory clarity. Additionally, the poem occasionally leans on familiar tropes of grief (e.g., “reaching for a body that’s already cold on the other side of the bed”), which could be re-examined for originality.
Overall, the poem is cohesive and emotionally compelling, with vivid imagery and a clear voice. Further revision could focus on sharpening certain images and ensuring that every detail serves to deepen the poem’s unique perspective on loss and longing.
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Lavender
1 week 4 days ago
I don't want to be saved from it
Hello!
I've read this aloud several times - I feel it deeper each time. I don't know if I'd say it's a perfect poem, but it certainly feels perfect in its title and message, its language and its emotion. So very good!
Thank you!
Lavender
Geezer
1 week 3 days ago
I get...
the "I don't want to be saved from it."
The emotional impact of this is felt throughout;
in the immersion of sorrow we feel that we owe to those who have "passed".
The guilt we feel, the "unsaid regrets, and promises of "I will never forget you"
all rolled into one at two o'clock in the morning. I think I get the "faint iron" of your lipstick", is it the iron of pressing a kiss? Like pressing a kiss to one's cheek.
I have a huge entanglement of emotion in this one, I can't see any punctuation errors or mistakes of grammar [if there are any]. ~ Geezer.
P.S. I would leave off the last three words.
Lavender
1 week 3 days ago
Back again!
I love Geezer's suggestion - removing those last three words makes the void in the darkness even deeper...
L