This cold room

Verse 1

Walking into this cold room,
i cant stare,
i cant bare to be here,
Its taken me long years to be here,
So many years to wipe my fear,

As i wipe the tears from my face,
As i take my place in the stand,
Already feeling the presence of that dirty man as i raise my hand,
About to say what i feel,
About to say my whole life that he went and killed,

Im about to spill all your secrets out,
Can you hear it better if i go and shout,
Cause what i learned from you, you like to keep my voice out,
So here i go ,
Your about to learn what im all about and how it started,

well i was just a little kid,
And after it i got departed from the whole world, i was so different,
All my decisions where made on only your judgment,
Im touching on something that only i can reveal,

Never wonted you to kill my life,
Now your looking at the jury for advice,
They wont help,
As i keep on talking about myself and what you did,
And what you said,
And how i bleed, and still to this day,

And there anit no other way that you can pay but listen to my voice,
Cause i had to listen to yours through the brick wall,
You make me so small,
And for that its my call on how you fall,
Cause how i fell, this is the truth i tell,
As you no,

So why dont you step forward and let your real side show,
To everybody sitting hear,
Your full of fear, knowing that your wrong,
If you werent i wouldnt be singing this song,

I wouldnt waste my time,
Wouldnt waste my time on making a lie about a guy who did damage,
To a little girl who can never manage,
And forever to come, so am i breaking you down telling everybody about waht you done?

Verse 2

So your stading there now,
Trying to look down so ashamed,
Cant even say my name,
And what you did,
And why were sitting here today,

Well maybe cause i wont to lay and rest in peace,
Cause my whole entire life ive been covered up by sheets,
I was burried alive,
Trying to survive all by myself,

Trying to deal with how i felt, and how i feel today,
Maybe you can understand if you get locked away today,
Go get carried away becuse its not my day, these are not my years,
Never thought i'll be standing in front of you with so much fear,

As tears surround me,
In this court room you finally found me,
Not letting you drown me,
Thats why im here,

Thinking you can run away an disappear,
Well not now,
Cause judgment has finally brought you down,
Now listen to the sound of pain,
Thats what ive been through plus the rain,

I cant explain what i really feel,
Having to peel off the layers for me to finally conceal the real me,
Covered up quickly by your sin,
Im battling to get back the way ive been,

Have you seen her?
Cause i wont to be her,
Trying to free her, all these years,
Having to dig her up to wipe the tears,

Buried alive through the years going deep,
What you did making her go to sleep,
Now she's six feet deep,
Preaching to the court with no feet,
With no stance,

Sitting in the box having to glance over your way,
Begging the judge to turn the verdict my way,
Cause i can never stay the way that i am,
Wonting to finally close this court case for me to stand.