At The Bar

I am at the bar
Drowning in my sorrows
Drinking my problems out of this bottle
My tears are pouring out of my soul like rain
A storm is raging on the inside of me
I am saying things I don't mean
My words are sharp like lighting
My heart pounding like thunder
The tornado inside of my mouth
I cannot control my tongue
I am apologizing for the things I have done
I cannot shake these feelings
Everything I put you through
You didn't deserve that it is not you it is me
I am at the bar losing my mind
I am trying to buried this pain inside of me like a casket
Every sip I take I swallow my pain
I try to hide my insecurities
You drove me back to drinking
Now I am at the bar