Lonely

I'm feeling lonely, like nobody is around.
when I get close to someone, they leave without a sound.
I know this can't last forever,
but I always have my doubts.
It seems like no one ever hears,
any of my screams or shouts.
Maybe its just that no one cares,
what I'm screaming about.
This feeling has always been there,
but not until now,
have I felt the full effect, where,
ending this feeling, is my vow.
Suicide is pointless,
cutting is painful,
the only way to fix this,
is to be faithful.
For I know God loves me,
I know he does.
Only God can heal me,
with his beautiful doves.