Hello...Goodbye

All my life
I've said goodbye
All my life
I've learned to let go

But now...
I don't remember
How to say "hello"
I don't know how
to let people in
I'm so used to getting to the end
That I've fogotten how to begin

Everything changes
people live and people die
people come and people go
goodbye always comes
right after
hello

I thought the world was balanced
I thought the world was fair
I thought I was supposed to be left behind
I thought my family was meant to be small

And then bang, crash boom!
in falls the room...

After
I've said goodbye to Thomas, Dad and David
After
I've said adieu to Rachel and Jachlyn

I'm supposed to except "hello"
with open arms
a slice of cake
and smiles?

I thought it would be easy
Fast, quick, thoughtless
...automatic...
like goodbye

But instead I have to look
Inside
And realize that its real
But instead I have to look you
In the eye
I have to shake your hand
And be polite
Welcome you inside
Instead of watch you
leave

Goodbyes are hard and bittersweet
But I think hellos are the real enemy.
Death is easy
But life is hard

And I have the choice now,
Of either
Standing still, being angry, scared and helpless
Or welcoming with happiness...

The idea of a step-father
walking through a door
that I've seen too many people
walk out of