anti-sanctuary

I am in my anti-sanctuary were I spend most of my days
wear all you think of is hatred and all you do is lay
I am in my anti-sanctuary were rescuers can’t seem to find
because this place is hidden deeply in my mind
I am in my anti-sanctuary when I begin to fear
I think "will I be able to get out of this .or will I be another body floating in by the pier"
I am in my anti-sanctuary were no tears run down my face
it is too sad for tears in the dark and scary place
I am in my anti-sanctuary as I see a light .
Is it really there or will I have to wait another night