It

It's becoming real now
I can't shake it off
I don't want to break it off
It's hitting me
Like a ton of bricks it sinks into my shoulders
Across my neck, down my spine and into my heart
I can feel it
The presure of it somehow feels good to me
I want it
i need it
I can't stand to loose it
It's like a muscle
I know that the pain will be wose once the pressure of it is gone
Please don't take it away from me
I can't live without it
My heart would explode if it wasn't there
This vital organ is already on the brink
The emotional muscle is being tworn in two
One side tells me I can't live without it
The other side insists I don't deserve it
Both sides are right
Though I fear only one can win
Only one side can overwhelm my heart's emotions
I just want to know
Why is my heart so confused about it
Why does my heart fight about it
Why
I know why
Because my heart I didn't know what it was
I didn't know what it was
I had never felt it before
I had never experienced it before
I had never experienced it
Until now