Why am i so silent?

Some people may think

Why am I silent for?

Cause I haven’t got the voice to open the door,
 

I’m still shut down

The memories in my head basically own me now!

They’ve thrown me down

As far as I can go,

Into the deepest hole
 

I can’t breath,

Cause its there the pain and hurt is adding on to my disease,

I got to take the creed

That I will never get better,

Because the memories are feeding on he’s adultery letter

That I apparently signed,

In my blood of he’s crime,
 

Now he’s doing fine,

But what about me,

Apparently know one can see,
 

That now im living miserable,

I might as well be invisible

As well as silent,
 

My brain is so violent,

From being messed with,

As a little kid

A grown man,

I can’t stand

Never for this shit

Just hearing about it makes my fist grip,
 

You’re taking a sip of my life,

Thank you for coming

But not long after you start running.