You havn't heard enough of me

I always ask myself,

Where to go to now?

Cause I’m always sitting at the cross roads with my head down,

I look around as its gets harder,

I’m smarter then this,

As my brain conflicts with the shit,

It fights for me,

It writes for me,

Cause the memories are stored there from his hands only,

I’m lonely,

From the stress,

From the mess,

People are walking away cause I can’t hold myself,

Not righteous,

I’m fighting less at this point,

I’m giving up,

But you haven’t heard enough,

Enough of me,

So come and see,

Just how I bleed,

Watching me feed off my own pain,

I’m going insane,

Listening to the music from my own brain,

It’s not tamed,

So watch out,

Ill shout out if I need help,

As I’m talking to myself,

Cause I’ve already done it,

15 years of me talking up the courage,

And left me to this,

Beat down broken and heartless,

I’m starting this because I don’t won’t to do die,

My blood is covered in his hands that lied,

And now I’m trying to make a better way,

And trying to over come,

What’s left me all confused looking at this gun,

So listen to me now, it’s your turn to run,

So it aint fun to leave me where it started,

All fucked up and mentally retarded,

Now I'm sparring with the words I write,

Despite that they give me strength,

Now I’m gripping at this wrench even harder,

I’m smarter then you think,

As I’m drowning in my drinks,

I’m at the brink of my break down,

With no one around and no sound, but just me,

So tragically I can’t be a person I can’t see,

But eventually ill overcome what’s set and done,

Now I’ve won. Now I've won!