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Cornfields and Creeks

Cornfields and Creeks
Written by Kelly Ann Wilson

They said I had the family gift,
So I wanted to honour it.
Couldn’t they tell
I had relentless stage fright?
That I was always shaking
On the inside?

They said I was a tough kid,
So I tried to seem brave,
No matter what they did.
Couldn’t they see
The quiet agony in my eyes?
That I was always screaming
On the inside?

They said I made myself a victim.
So, I never again sought safety in them.
Couldn’t they feel
How he was draining all of my light?
That I was slowly disappearing
On the inside?

They said that I left this place
To study in the city,
So I couldn’t call myself country.
Couldn’t they remember
The farmer’s daughter running free and wild?
That I was cornfields and creeks
On the inside?

They feigned their versions of me
And I let them be too loud.

Now, here I am, I’m 33
And time can’t be unwound.

Who would I be
If for all of these years
I had just been myself?

I hope I get the chance
To find out.

Photography and design by Kelly Ann Wilson
© 2024 Kelly Ann Wilson

Written August 1, 2024
© 2024 Kelly Ann Wilson

About This Poem

Last Few Words: Read my writer’s blog at https://kwilsonarts.wordpress.com

Style/Type: Free verse

Editing Stage: Editing - polished draft

About the Author

Region, Country: Ontario, Canada, CAN

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Comments

Geezer

Geezer

10 months 4 weeks ago

Stage fright...

is a terrible thing.
I cannot imagine having it every single time that you get up there in front of people.
I managed to conquer my stage fright, but I understand that there are many who can't,
and still get up and perform or speak in public! I am in awe of anyone who does this.
The only thing that I see that might improve this, is in the line:
"They feigned their versions of me." [In view of the line following this one], I would say something like.

They whispered their versions of me
"and I let them be too loud."

Of course, you can use this or any other comments/advice I give you or discard it.
Make up your own line. You have written of a silent scream, and I understand. Good job! ~ Geez.
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