Different Center

down
deep, deep down
where everything I was
revealed itself
in lightless squirm
beneath sick chaos turmoil
killing slowly
I crouched the coward's flinch
of terror as my death
struck at me once again

yet at the center of my fear
where soul and struggling flesh are
wrenched apart in final anguish
and life becomes a thing remembered
I found a stillness in the madness
a void foundation solid as slow mountains

for on oblivion's final edge
that place I know as well as breath
I found delight in agony
a joy as bright as star's white heart
perfection's jewel
scribed with bells of answer
in the center of my being
Siva
many-armed
dancing

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