Restless meanings

I remember being so young, I used to cry.
Over inevitable realizations, we each must die.
Cursing creation, for these desperations of why.
Still didn't understand the way these souls fly.
My place in the universe or these slices of pi
Just a slave to vanity with attachments of "My"

I'd rather be alone then disappoint in more sighs
Taken me years in self worth being overanalyzed
To see I'm surrounded by strips of old dead flies
Within fears that I've come to love & immortalize
My demons I'm still afraid to look into their eyes
Scared of hellos turning into more good-byes
So I run away, for Coastal Burnt Sunset Sky's
Yet, even my hope symbolizes ultimate demise

Too much information to try & contain
Too much inspiration for me just to refrain
The world is our oyster so go ahead & gain
Just remember the ripples & cycles of pain
Then Love on strangers to dance in the rain
We have one chance, don't die so mundane

Chasing a life of unrealistic comfort & purity
When in reality life is accepting our obscurity
Its a coming of age to this spiritual maturity
To see ourselves as we are, socially incurably
Understanding our void, in all of it's absurdity
You are but the god, over all this uncertainty!