The Whistleblower

Too many times I have let things slide.
Instead of moving forward I chose to step aside.
I became complacent in a world demanding more.
When did my existence become such an eyesore?

So many chances to do things right.
Infinite possibilities from morning till night.
All I had to do was let my song be sung,
Instead of regressing with one slip of the tongue.

“Tomorrow’s a new day!” was the motto I used to follow.
But each passing minute left my insides hollow.
Standing on the sidelines really took its toll.
The crack of insecurity now an abysmal hole.

Seeing the glass half empty became the new trend.
I forgot I had a backbone from how far I had to bend.
Frightened of stepping out from my own shadow,
Terrified that my dreams will rot in the gallows.

I earned the title “Queen of Self-Sabotage”,
For every oasis turned out to be a mirage.
All I wanted was to speak my heart out loud,
Instead of being just another face in the crowd.

I became a prisoner of my own ego.
My dark descent into a delirious psycho.
Chains of regret holding me back.
A constant reminder of all that I lack.

Is this truly who I’m meant to be?
Is there nothing more for me to see?
Must my flame burn out so soon?
Is there nothing more that I can do?

*just you wait*

I refuse to fall in line.
No longer will I waste my time.
Correcting my mistakes is long overdue.
My voice will speak what it knows to be true.

*just you wait*

Never again will I drown in despair.
I'll forever burn as bright as Altair.
Even if my good deeds become my demise,
Just like a phoenix - again I will rise.

*just you wait*

Would've been
Could've been
Should've been
Me.
Just you wait; a Whistleblower I'll be.