Yearning to be free!

In the winter of my life
I had to make a choice.
The suffering was so intense
that I couldn't hear my inner voice.

My family and friends
had abandoned me.
I tried to make things right,
but no one had a listening ear.

One rainy day at Spring Creek
I tried to take my life.
They took me to a hospital
where I stayed for fifteen days!

After the long, lonely stay,
they took me back to Spring Creek.
My outlook on life was damaged,
everything seemed a mistake.

I've waited patiently here,
then one day they said I could leave.
I was going to my own place,
somewhere that I could be free!

I was in third stage kidney failure.
The psych meds were doing me in.
I played by their rules in part,
but I just coudn't break away.

I'm still here waiting at Spring Creek.
I'll die here if they don't let me leave.
I know it's more of a story,
but it's really happening to me.

My hope is that very soon,
I'll be on my own again.
I've done some foolish things,
but hopefully I will leave here soon!