Depression (An acrostic attempt)

D-ark as the night of a starless sky
E-ating your heart out with a passionless cry
P-ressing the moments into cold ambiguity
R-eeling within, with abject insanity
E-ngaging with fear that never will end
S-orry for things, you know will happen again
S-inging sad songs that tug at your heart
I-deals blown to hell as you take the dark part
O-wning your feelings whatever they are
N-ot giving in to your fatalistic cries.

by: eddy styx

I am of longest night
Most mercurial.
Loving the sound,
Of Autumn leaves
Twisting in the wind
Before the storm.
My song is that
Of the fluttering
Of bat wings,
Streaming
Like the bounty
Of a thunderhead
From the recesses
Of my daily shelter.
I was born with
The breaking of 3 a.m.
Of the dismal night
That covers me
As I prowl and hunt
The soiled doves
The ladies of the evening.

Steaming hot oatmeal
A cup of coffee light
to chase away the cobwebs
gathered in the night

T.V. news and weather girls
Local headlines here
Ads for cleaning products
Some for artificial tears

Gameshows, full of people
looking to make a buck
Sneering fashionistas
getting by with ....s

Who are all these people?
Do they live next door?
I've seen them out my window
Are they bringing us their war?

I exhibit health and virility at one hundred and
64 years astride planet earth, whereby spouse,
(who remained married to yours truly for about
one century – which elapsed in blink of an eye)
long since gave up the ghost, which found me
receptive to possible mission to date women
(strong of body, mind, and spirit with frontier
spirit) young enough to be my granddaughter.

In the vast expanse of time's embrace,
A love of a lifetime finds its place.
No rules to bind or lines to trace,
Just two souls entwined, a cosmic chase.

No restrictions, no boundaries set,
Just pure connection, no need to fret.
A love that's wild, untamed, and free,
A dance of hearts, for eternity.

Through stormy seas and darkest nights,
Our love burns bright, lighting the heights.
No distance too far, no mountain too steep,
Our love conquers all, forever to keep.

Three o'clock;
Cobwebs dangle from exhausted eye lashes.
Sleep eludes me like an outgrown friend,
while memories of you come in flashes.

Loneliness covers me like a quilt,
yet offers no comfort; my emotions it steals
just a breeding ground for open wounds
that time can never heal.

Drinking from my tears,
the taste of sand in my mouth
has been eradicated by their truth,
pushing my mind further South.

Grief comes in waves
So they say

It's more like a tsunami
Or like getting hit by a freight train

It's powerful
Heart stopping
Gut wrenching
Drop to your knees kind of pain

It makes you cry
so hard
you can't breathe

It makes you
so heavy
you can't lift yourself
out of bed

It shocks you
into a state of paralysis

It feels like
nothing
can pull you ashore
and rescue you
from the crashing weight of the water

Save for one more tear...

On cold winter mornings,
Coal-burning furnace yet unlit,
Toes curled from the frigid wooden floor,
Grandma’s kitchen was a warm haven;
The wood-burning stove radiating comfort.

Hands wrapped ‘round hot Postum,
I listened in rapture to her tales
Of strange happenings on Otter Lake
And what her life was like
Long before I was born.

Arise from dismay's iron limbs,
Choking zeal away from your mighty will.
Conciliation and hope to petulant minds,
Who believe every road is but a pile of chaffs,
And miracles are only made up tales to please

Arise, for there's nothing to gain lying on an empty ground,
Cursing the universe for the nothingness,
The nothing encompassing your compass,
Look through, above the walls, into the eyes of sunrise
Espy, learn, great things are waiting for you

T hawed face like frozen death

H igh snarling winds stinging face dust

E ngine breaking slowly from steep walking

I m freezing inside and outside my
C ore. Crystal Atlantic blue hue numb
E nergy sapped from thin air above

C ondition critical and no hospital
O ld scent of dry wetness my
L oud rattling shaking body
D ust white powdered no visibility