Uh oh...

Life's good,
mood is up
so I should
be careful.

Great idea!
do it now!
got to somehow
yes, that's it
and that and that and that

[stop, breathe]

yes but
I could
I should
can't wait
I can't I will until
and then and then and then

[stop, breathe, think]

I walk to the crest of a hill
Caught in a misty sea
Loosely enfolded in sun shattered light
In the garden of Cymru.

Gradually the landscape appears
Out of the glister gauze
Unrolling green knotted mountains and fields
Filling my eyes with applause.

Below the sheep in the valley
Munch on the diamond dew
Nonchalantly eating the sparkling blades
Beaded with droplets of blue.

I miss how we slipped together
like darkness
like a shadow
filling the hearts polished lonliness
Saturated with stars
we counted them all
till one by one they fell
and I awoke

dreamless and
wished away

I played the game with a smile.

Pawns suppressing the move
Made by my hand for the king.
A mistake, and it's all over.

Checkmate.

The king couldn't move neither direction
For the opponent's difficulty,
But rather an invitation of defeat
Spurned with soldiers left looking
At a king's dethronement.

No more.

I lost to a mere
Enticement
Of a Queen.

Snowflakes are falling
And I cannot understand
Fireflies are floating
It’s hard enough to demand
That I take your hand-

Watch as I dance and fall
Onto your gorgeous tongue
Watch as I stand tall
Inside your gracious heart
Let our love restart-

Remember a time less confusing
When love was at your bed
Remember a life worth losing
A loaded gun at your head
While I was watching, you just let us fall

Im going to burst i need to let loose
The feelings inside, now my curse
These emotions i deplore
How far must i see my self fall
before these feelings consume me
Speak there names give them a face
admit to myself these feelings are mine

Anger you break me
You make me hide
afraid of the things you make me feel inside
Tired of the hiding yet afraid of the pain
Anger you break me

How do i start where do i begin,
words slowly ebbing away from my mind
not a love poem
not a poem of depression
yet thoughts slip away

a poem in my mind
a few words on paper
a smile playing on lips
a soft whisper upon my ears

yet words alone do they remain
with out feeling
with out passion
words fall all the same

SHOUT them loud
let the impact fade away
until all that remains
are the words said

When two little girls look up at me
it can remind me how good life can be
and when I hear their voices in play
I love the funny things, they often say.

They can be happy and sometimes sad
they can be good and they can be bad
and when they smile and ask me to play
how can I not, do what they say?

One of them is six, the other one is two
without them in my life, what would I do
and if they are sad, I wipe away their tears
ready to comfort them and take away their fears.

Gay Means Be Happy

How I Wish You Were Gay
its actually as per revised titled

See so many have clicked

On the word,

Gay,

But surely it’s not that way,

In my time gay,

Was gay,

Happy,

Enjoyable,

Great fun

And

So on,

But today in this closeted minds of today,

Gay is with the rear door you play,

Be it with a woman

Or

Perhaps with another gay,

See how sex sells,

I just wrote somewhere,

The title I did display,

Was to catch all you guys

Winter has its sparkle, but not for me today
my thoughts have turned to summer, not so far away.
With mild and lighter evenings and days so warm and long
I think of all the things I can do, when summer comes along.

But I’ll just want to be with you and feel you close to me
walking hand in hand with you, strolling by the sea.